Insecurities.

Well, here is another big word. Insecurity! We all have them, no matter how big or small they are, all of us have it. Whether it is your physical appearance, or your confidence, or with someone. If you don't, that is actually really good.   

I have some of my own as well. Mine is in fact my height. Let's face it, I'll be stuck in this body that I have for a long time. So, being small, does have its ups and downs. With my height, I am often seen as invisible especially in a public transport, example, the MRT, also known as the train. People tend to squeeze in and it does get frustrating because just because I am small, it automatically means I do not need space. What happened to personal space here? In a public transport, there is no such thing as personal space. Well, what did I expect, it is a public transport after all, haha, stop complaining and get a car already, LOL. Anyway, I am getting out of point here.

I am small person, it is like my age and how I look like is so much different. Like I am stuck in a ten-year-old body. Even ten-year-olds are taller than I am. With my height, I tend to be insecure of what I wear too. I get sad that I will not look good in certain outfits and I have to look for a dress that either sits just above my knees, or a long dress, never in the middle. 

Other than my height, comes the weight issue. No, I am not a small skinny person, I am a bit fleshy too (And yet I don't do anything about it, besides complain about it, LOL). Who else is with me on this? So, whatever I wear, I tend to be wary (Yeah, it is repetitive). I'm human too, complaining about things. But that is also not the point here. The point is that no matter how flawed you think you are, you just have to appreciate and be thankful for everything that you have. Someone else have it worse than you do. Yes, I tend to get unappreciative from time to time, but I remind myself that I am one lucky person to be having a home, shelter, family, able to afford food and I am able to do the things that I want.

There is also the issue of being insecure towards your partner, or if not, someone you care about. Communication is mostly the effective solution. It is not easy to open up to someone. But once you try it, it will get easier. Sometimes communication does not solve the issue, and that is where you have to think how the relationship is going to work. I am sure you will not want to suffer in silence. Have someone to talk to, might not be consulting your own partner, but have a friend that you can share your problems with. Or go for counselling if it helps you. Okay, shut up Irah, what do you know about all this right! Lol.

So, to all you beautiful flawed people, I may not know you, but I assure you that I care about each and everyone of you. If someone treats you badly, call you names or just make fun of your insecurity, smile and thank them (I know it is hard to ignore, and sometimes ignoring does not work too well-consult help from someone you trust), because deep down you know that they are jealous for not being as fabulous as you are/will be. So, a big hug to all of you out there!

Stay strong and fight on!

Here's to end off this post!

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P.S: I have been delaying this post for such a long time, not sure about posting it either, but here goes.

Take care and have a good day/night!

Till then,
XOXO