Growing up.

Growing up. Such a big word for a small person like me. It feels that time does not wait for us at all. And it probably never will. And we all know that. I'm turning 23 this year and it is really scary in a way that I'm growing to be an adult and my mind still wishes I'm still in my teenage years, getting my diploma. As crazy as it sounds, I miss my schooling days. Yeah, just the friends that I get to hang out with and have fun and not worry about our common tests or our final exam until the last minute. Skipping classes and lectures halfway through, and only attending the lecture only towards the end of the semester just because tips will be given for the exams.

Admit it, at some point of time(when we were younger) we hang on to the hope that Peter Pan might fly into our room bring us to Never land and save us from growing up; just having fun in Never land with the lost boys. Oh, how I loved(Maybe I still do) Peter Pan when I was a kid. Also, maybe it is because of him. But oh well?

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The thought of growing older, scares me. Especially after I got my Diploma, then reality starts to kick in. I began to realise that it is not easy to get a job. No, I do not wish to go to University, just yet as I have no intention of pursuing my degree. And I know things will not get easy because we have to start being independent. We have to earn our own pocket money. In Singapore, it is very hard to move out to get our own apartment once we're in our 20's, though that would be pretty awesome. Usually, we will apply for a house when we're ready to settle down. Housing is expensive here.

It took me 3 months of searching till I finally got a call and got a job. All thanks to my awesomest boyfriend ever! He helped me a lot with this and always motivating me throughout this process of job searching. I don't know how many jobs I applied for and how many resumes I sent, either I get no reply at all, or the job turned out to be way different than what was stated.

Working front-line is tough because I am a naturally shy and quiet person. But ever since I started working where I am now, I begin to open up and talk more to people, especially to the ones I don't really know. Meeting new people is a norm because it is a clinic after all, you're bound to meet new faces which most of the time, you will not remember by the end of the day. 

So yes, growing up is a hard thing to do, but it can be fun as well. On the bright side, it actually is nice earning your own money, being responsible paying your own bills(maybe not so much fun as time goes by), not depending on your parents that much financially.

Monday is tomorrow and I am trying not to let the blues get to me. Have a good week ahead!

Till then,
XOXO